With the help of weight loss coach Michelle Pratt I felt like I’d been making brilliant progress with dealing with the ‘issues’ behind my ice-cream addiction.
We’d identified that I was anxious about starting my own business and had addressed a few areas of my day to day life where my needs weren’t being met.
Whilst I hadn’t cut out ice-cream and sweet treats, the chats with Michelle were allowing me to get perspective on my habits, and I was starting to be more mindful about what I was shovelling in my face and why. I was cooking healthy treats made with non refined sugar and more healthy ingredients. I was eating bigger healthy meals that were filling me up and leaving me less likely to crave sugary snacks. Even acknowledging how hard starting a business is somehow moved me out of my sugary rut.
But then bang, an adrenelin pumped and stressful week resulted in an almighty sugar binge. The combination of dealing with a family illness, the rollercoaster of emotions of starting to promote my business and being mega busy left me exhausted. So on Tuesday I went to Marks and Spencers because I felt I deserved a treat. That was my undoing. My favourite ice-creams (mud pie and key lime pie) were reduced to 75p and salted caramel whips were on special offer too. I walked out of M&S with four tubs of ice-cream and six whips.
Needless to say Tuesday and Wednesday were sugar fuelled and left me feeling sullied, guilty and sick. I missed feeling wholesome and healthy. However Michelle and I had a coaching session today and I’m feeling very positive. We’ve looked closely at what triggered me and my thinking processes behind the purchases. By digging into my reasoning, I feel like I’ve half solved the problem. We also identified that I do have a habit of eating small meals in an attempt to keep my weight in check and that backfires because before long I’m reaching for sugar. With a bit of rummaging I admitted to Michelle that having been overweight on many occasions in my life I’m scared of putting weight on as being overweight made me unhappy. So the fear of putting on weight is perhaps encouraging some unhealthy counterproductive habits around food.
Whilst I don’t have the answers yet, I feel that the work I’m doing with Michelle is really powerful and moving me forward. I’m not expecting a fast turn around miracle, but hopefully with more support from Michelle I will crack this in the coming months.